You have to understand. 3 miles doesn’t impress me. Stop trying to brag. You can talk to me about running when you can keep up with me. That sounds super conceited but whatever. I run with a tumor in my spine and an irregular heart beat and I can go more than twice what you do. So please stop bragging.
I hate how you went up to Elijah today and hugged him like you were going to miss him this summer. Girl, you don’t even see him that often and you talk smack about him all the time. PLUS, he doesn’t even like you. You’re just trying to play the game ” who can _____ better/more.” Honestly, I’ve never gone 2 days without Elijah since I met him. We’re literally best friends. He refers to my mother as his mother, and my mother refers to him as a child. My mom is so comfortable with him, that she allows him to sleep over. When he leaves for the summer, I’m going to bawl like a baby. I won’t see my best friend for 3 entire months. (I’ll see him at DCI San Antonio and not let go of him)
It just makes me so angry when you try to say you guys are better friends. Yeah he drives me insane sometimes, but he is my brother. So step of dumb butt. He doesn’t even like you
Today I sent you a penguin emoji to see how you would respond. You sent back French fries. Exactly what I was hoping for, but not what I was expecting. So I tried to play it off and send a regular smiley face. You sent back a heart in my favorite color. Like we used to always do. So I sent back a heart in your favorite color to see what would happen and you sent back “wooo.” Now, what I’m getting from this, and I may be wrong, is that you still have feelings for me. And this isn’t the only example either. You send me pictures of my favorite show, and tell me you still care about me, and you want me to be happy, AND not only those things you sent me the kissy face emoji and the emoji with hearts for eyes. I’m not sure if you are meaning to do that, but it makes me really happy. Because I miss you a lot.
I’m so glad you started talking to me again. You initiated it too. Not me. It’s great because I really really missed having conversations like this with you.
Oh my gosh I miss you so much. I made a huge mistake and you’ll never forgive me for it. So i’m forced to watch you being your perfect self. Last night, I was forced to watch you dance with another girl. Honestly, I cried right then and there.
I swear, if I wasn’t for Brandon Kendall, I would be so far gone right now. Literally every time it became hard to smile, and function properly, he would cheer me up somehow. He helped me when no one else would, and motivated me to continue to give 110% I seriously can’t believe he’s leaving us next year. I don’t know what I’ll do without his guidance. Hopefully I can afford private lessons because I don’t know if I can do without him in my life.
And that’s exactly why I made this blog. So you wouldn’t comment on my posts anymore. I appreciate your concern though. Thank you.
I see your posts on here, and I get really sad because I know they’re not about me anymore.
I thought I might want to have a birthday party this year and my mom got me to be a little excited about it. But then I thought about it more..
1. Nobody would actually want to come
2. The people that came wouldn’t want to be there
3. I’d offend someone, somehow
4. I don’t like celebrating another year of life
So I think it’s safe to say, I don’t want a birthday party.
I literally have an emotional breakdown at least once a day. Can everyone stop talking about me for 10 seconds and let me breathe?
Sometimes I feel as though I’ve made a terrible mistake.
Honestly, i like you. But I don’t like you as much as you like me and it kind of makes me uncomfortable. Every other guy i’ve been with gave me butterflies and made me blush all the time. For some reason with you, I don’t do that. I feel this weird sense of calm. Like i don’t want to do anything. I don’t know. It’s weird. I mean I still look at the people i was in love with, and i still feel the pain and the passion. I’m not sure i would be able to say the same about you. I’m sorry. I know you’re trying..
This is purely so i can talk about specific things people do and not have anyone find it
